just came back from work.

tired~

3crews nv turned up for work.

-_-

made 3managers worked like mad dogs.

haa.

tired is tired.

things tat i wana to be done i still can do it.

maybe not all have the same thinking as me.

well.

i need to be more understanding ba.

hmm... ...~

actually im so mood-less de.

but aft talking to my goon du friend junaina.

i feel better.

hmm.

it had been a long time ever we talk on phone.

we seldom talked too le.

aft i transfer out from kallang.

to marina square.

den she transfer out to funan.

den attach to T3.

aft tat back to funan.

now tell me she wana resign.

wth~

i just promoted.

den she wana resigned.

still promised me to go D&D this year together.

idiotic she~

-_-

yeah yeah.

talking abt D&D.

its abt on march.

hee.

looking forward for it!!

=p

not working today.

feeling so damn tired and lazy.

dont feel like doing anything and going anywhere.

just came back from work.

my nose is killing me.

sneeze and sneeze for the whole day.

abt a week le lor.

bth~

yeah yeah.

came back from shopping at queensway.

he got his shoe.

i got my skinny jeans.

=DD

but.

he claims tat i look fat although tats SKINNY jeans.

so sad!!

i still buy it.

coz.

he only tell me aft i paid.

-_-''

to my surprise.

he brought me to ecp aft tat.

y surprise?

coz i was told to close my eyes almost 3/4 of the journey.

its like takin roller coaster in the dark.

felt so giddy.

den when i open my eyes.

yeah im at ecp!

i like to go there.

to slack.

to enjoy the sea breeze.

to listen to the sea wave

hee.

=p

aft two off days.

later going to work at 330pm.

like to work closing shifts.

coz im a night lfe person.

haa.

just came back from our shopping trip.

well perhaps is HIS shopping trip instead ba.

coz he is the one who bought lotsa stuffs while im empty handed.

lols.

went bugis street.

he bought himself one jeans and two tops.

is guys jeans tat ex?

59bucks for one?

omg~

haa.

actually wana get myself another skinny.

but tat particular shop is damn lots of ppl.

so i changed my mind not to get it.

haa.

we went to catch ONE MISSED CALL.

nice movie.

coz i like horror mah.

haa.

horror-ness: 9/10

storyline: 6.5/10

the lead actor died and the story somehow got no ending.

and oso dunno how the whole story actually started.

haha.

well but still kinda recommanded.

anyway is it true tat watching horror movies is like wasting money to scare urself?

perhaps its true for those who are scared and dont like.

but.

i like it.

LOLs~!!

=DD

surprisingly he is not working today.

surprise coz i dunno it at all.

haha.

think we might be going to queensway coz he wana get shoes.

think i might can get skinny there.

grab some tops if i can find any.

hee.

another shopping trip on 28!!

haha.

with dolly and candice.

maybe lisa too,

wana get shoes tat day.

hee.

yeah yeah yeah~

shop shop shop till drop before cny!!

=p

today is sunday.

so happy tat im off.

tmr im off too.

its so great tat having 2 off days straight.

already planned to go out today.

but i dunno how is the plan going on.

i looking forward for today for a very long time.

supposely to be happy.

but..

sads.

seriously is very difficult to handle family work friends and bf all at one time.

i believe everyone dont wish to neglect any of it.

tat including me.

so wat can i do to have equal and sufficient time for all?

went for dinner.

shun bian went to kallang mcd to visit them.

so sad lor.

they say i getting fatter liao.

OMG~!!!

i really need to do sth abt it lor.

hais

haha.

no jogging today.

coz he finishing work at 7pm instead of 11pm.

going out for dinner later.

hee.

and dunno y these few days i had been sneezing for the whole day.

he miss me too much?

lols.

=D

just feel uncomfortable.

excuse?

haa.

but still i wana slim down!!

but how?!?!

argh... ...

hmm.

another working day had past.

and today im off again.

think im gonna stay at home again.

wana go jogging.

hope the weather wont be bad.

haa.

dunno y i somehow looking forward for cny.

kinda excited abt it.

hee.

=p

planned to go jogging just now in the evening de.

but heavy rain.

my plan is ruined.

-_-

yup finally i uploaded photos in my friendster le.

aft 2mths i guess

haa.

hmm its wednesday le.

well im not working today.

gonna stay at home to slack the whole day.

it had been a very very long time ever since i last slack at home whole day.

haa.

haiya suet ah suet.

i dunno wat to say abt myself lor.

sensitive is ok.

but y am i forever OVER sensitive de.

actually nth happen.

made me so damn afraid to go work.

yup.

at least now think i dont need to worry tat much le ba.

my confidence is back again.

im willing to learn form my mistake.

and wont let history happen again.

(:

seriously shit.

i wana slim down b4 cny~!!

=DD

yup cny is less den a mth time.

cny shopping started but has not end.

gonna shop more!

hee.

this cny will be very different ba.

im not going back malaysia for cny.

aft 19yrs?

haa i dunno when i was baby i did went back or not.

at least 12yrs i celebrated cny at malaysia.

but this yr cant.

first due to i cant take leave for the whole feb.

isn't it idiotic?

hais.

secondly my bro in ns le.

tats y.

hais.

i miss my ah yi.

i miss my jiu jiu(s).

i miss my cousins esp my fav biao jie!!

and lastly definately i miss my 7 cutest nicece and nephews~!!

):

its MONDAY~!!

a brand new week.

forget abt last week.

and start new.

be happy.

(:

had watched the movie LINGER by zai zai.

not too bad.

rating 7/10

im back to online spree le~!!

omg!!

lols.

hope i wont be addicted once again and spend ALOT.

haa.

hais.

im so sad.

im so afraid.

im so stress.

im such a failure.

in the past im so confident tat i can do my job properly.

but actually i dont have tat much capabilities.

or am i having to much confidence in myself.

im too proud le?

i believe tat ALL human being make mistake right?

actually i shld learn from mistake.

instead of learning.

i repeat the same mistake.

again again.

and now im losing confidence le.

i dont feel like doing it le.

im so scared.

im afraid to overcome my fear.

i hope i can run away from the problem.

but i noe i cant.

i need to pay responsible to wat i had done.

hais.

working is so fucking stress.

i really got the mindset of dont wana work le.

i wana go study.

aft this matter had happened.

the more i wana go study.

am i trying to avoid the problem?

or i just really wana study.

i cant differentiate.

hais.

i really wana cry le.

i dunno wat to do le.

i cant do or say anything but only to say SORRY.

i dunno how am i going to face her tmr.

i dunno how she going to nag at me.

i dunno whether i can hold on my tears or not.

but i hope i can.

coz i dont wana let my crews see tat im not strong.

hais its not easy to act and pretend.

no one else can help me except myself.

think tmr i need to face the 'music'.

den next build up my confidence once again,

and lastly overcome the fear ba.

hope this plan will really work ba.

(:

ITS SATURDAY~!!

and im not working.

hee yeah.

=p

yup yup.

year 2008 had past 1 week plus le.

let me list out my resolutions.

1. to be a good daughter

2.to be a good gf

3.to save more money and spend less

4.slim down

5.to get into nus to study mathematical sciences

6.to get my driving licence

happy 2008~!!

(:

back home.

im so so so tired.

i dunno im tired coz of work.

or tired coz of the medication tat cause drowsiness.

started work at 0715.

ended work at 1615.

going to meet dear aft work.

but he finish work at 1800.

so i stayed in store to do some of my paper work den go off.

had not list my 2008 resolutions yet.

got some on mind.

will post it on my next post.

im so damn sleepy le.

i wana go slp liao.

good night everyone~

(:

o0o.

so so so long nv update le.

hee paiseh ah.

my bdae over.

celebrated with my 4 crazy girls.

celebrated with my 3 jies.

celebrated with my dear.

im happy.

im contented.

(:

xmas over.

no outings.

no countdown.

just being with him at the very first moment of xmas.

(:

new year over.

again no celebration.

no countdown..

just dont feel like being in the crowd.

having him watching fireworks with me.

im glad.

im happy.

acutally tat is one of my wish long ago.

to watch fireworks with my love one.

i just find it so romantic.

hee.

finally my wish come true during the very first moment of the year 2008.

hope year 2008 will be a good year for me.

(:

my bro just went into ns.

'where boy become man'

lols.

wish him good luck.

all the best.

endure and tolerate.

(:

so i think i can be online more often le ba.

haa.

im sick.

just went to see doctor.

had fever while working ytd.

had panadol felt much better,

but my throat is still hurting me.

even eating and drinking is hurting me like hell~!!

hais.

i hate to be alone.

i really feel miserable when im alone.

i hate saying bye.

coz im afraid tat will be the last moment of everything.

i hate empty promises.

its really hurt when u say it but did not do it.

despite its just a small matter.

met him.

feel so much better aft seeing him.

had been worrying for him for past 2 days.

he kind of settle himself down.

he claim tat he felt much more better.

he dont wana let me noe in the first place coz he dont wana me to worry.

he oso dont wan me to disturb him coz he already damn stress out.

he only call me the next early in the morning to inform me.

think wat can i do now so tat i wont feel so useless is to be with him.

by his side when he need someone most.

like now.

(:

ytd actually i really wana go pei him de.

but im working.

now i cant say dont go work den go work le.

unlike last time.

so really no mood to work.

den just now he told me if im the one in his suituation.

he will not go work and come pei me.

i noe he is not indirectly saying tat i did not go pei him.

but i still feel like of hurt.

not i dont want.

is i cannot.

hais.

from wat i noe.

guy's pride are high.

im so afraid tat now he is in this suituation.

he will leave me.

from wat i see.

i think i hope i pray i believe tat he wont do tat to me.

(:

girl~

thanks for ur msg.

*BIG hug*

im so touch to see tat msg.

i dunno is to smile or to cry.

i did not reply coz if i did think my tears will drop.

but when i reached home.

i read it again.

my tears did drop.

hais.

im still the girl i used to be.

cry so damn easily.

i tot i had became strong.

but actually im have not.

im still 'not a strong girl'.

like before.

had been a very long time ever since i had the feeling im having now.

have u ever cried with ur pillow and no one consoled u?

i just cried with my pillow and no one consoled me.

have u ever felt desperate in finding someone to talk to but no someone for u to talk to?

im now feeling so desperate in finding someone to talk to but no one for me to talk to.

i really wana cry all my sorrow out till i got no more tears to drop.

well perhaps blogging is a good way for me to throw my frustration.

vent my anger.

'listen' to all my sorrows.

i miss those days tat just 1 call or just 1 msg.

all will come out to talk to laugh and even to cry.

but now?

things had change.

again.

im tired.

real tired.

mentally tired.

abt work?

yes.

there is really endless work for me to complete.

it seems like to take forever to finish.

24hrs per day is not enough for me.

hais.

abt relationship?

yes.

i just feel tat im a useless gf.

he is in trouble yet i cant do anything to help him.

i dunno wat to do.

isn't it im useless?

hais.

i really dunno wat will happen next.

really hope and pray tat everything will turn better.

y is my life have to go thru so much ups and downs.

i really got enough of those le.

when can i have my carefree life?

when im old in my 80s?

oso dunno im tat long life or not.

hais.

all i want is to enjoy life.

y cant i?

sat n sun off.

this week i only work 4 days.

isn't it great?

lols.

hope my next mth schedule will be this wonderful too.

wahaha~

=DD

had been msging ppl dating them out for my celebration.

xmas celebration too!!

hee.

abit kiasu?

ok lah.

all ppl so busy.

if nv book them early think they wont be free de.

haa.

but i still got no idea where to go yet.

any suggestions?

hee.

=p

appreciate for those who replied me.

for those who nv reply.

does it mean tat they dont seem to care?

i wonder.

so do i need to care whether they attend or not?

im still wondering.

hmmm... ...

so shocking.

last week saw diana during work.

ytd receive her msg saying she getting engage on 9dec.

wow congrats her!!

hope i can go ba.

dont dare to request another sunday off again.

coz i had request 3 weekends off liao.

opps!

bleah!

dont envy wat others are having.

achieve wat u wana get.

(:

my 5 days class is over.

got another cert.

got another diploma.

did not get dean's list.

did not get any award back.

of coz im sad.

still i had already done my best.

wat the consultants and bosses say is right.

did not get any award is alright.

the most impt thing is to apply wat we had learnt during th 5 days in store.

yup.

(:

back to work.

more confident.

troubleshoot things and equipments is in my fingertips le.

can think fast le.

haa.

5 days did not work in store.

i missed my store.

i missed my crews.

slowly there had became my second home liao.

haa.

i had overcome the fear of doing cloing alone.

unlike the first few times got so much problems.

lols.

but still there is so many ppl objecting me working this.

i still find no reason for me to leave this job.

the bottom line is.

i love this job.

unless one day i hate this job.

i will leave.

if not i feel tat no one have the right to stop me from wat i love to do.

tat include my love ones.

(:

met diana at my work ytd.

recently so got fate with my poly friends.

think its really time for us to have a gathering ba.

but when?

lols.

at times.

im still afraid.

i still feel so insecure.

i still having the fear of losing tat i used to have.

i dont want!

I dOnT wAnT!!

I DONT WANT ALL THESE~!!!

but.

we both love each other so much tat dont bear to leave.

hee.

=p

so qiao.

2 days ago met my ai ren at bugis.

i did not notice her.

is like suddenly got 2 hands appear right infront of me.

as if wana slap me like tat.

haa.

den i realise is her.

im so shocked.

i shouted lor.

lols.

miss my ai ren so much.

oso dunno when we can meet again.

soon k?

again so qiao.

met zhao at marina square my workplace there.

he was with those guys tat im not close with.

so nv go and say hello to them.

haa.

they was not at mac.

they was beside at starbucks.

everything is just so damn qiao lor.

i was outside taking delivery then zhao walk pass mac.

i was like 'ehh zhao~!!'

lols.

den we chatted for awhile.

yeah long ago i expected for sure he sure say me.

i did not organise chalet.

-_-

he always blame me on this.

since feb last day of sch.

till july de graduation.

till oct zhao went ns liao.

i still nv organise.

haha.

seriously i dunno when we can get all together again leh.
is tat possible?

who can make it possible?

when can this be possible again?

yo hoo~!!

i had uploaded all my recent pics.

college and photoshop them le.

all at my friendster le.

haha dolly lisa sorry for the delay.

to apologise i had email u 2 liao.

hee.

for the rest of u all who wants invidual photos.

try ur luck and catch me on msn ba.

coz the file is too large cant attach to email.

ohh ya!!

do comment on the college i had done wor.

enjoy seeing!

hee.

=p

work work work.

got so much things to do.

endless stuffs to complete.

going to mid month le.

pay cut off date is drawing near.

lotsa stuffs to key in.

need to be quick coz i wont be in store for abt a week.

wait my crews got less pay all come aft me den i die liao lor.

work work work.

argh~

hmm.

things really seems like changing as time goes.

i felt so insecure.

like wat i used to feel.

i dont like to feel it tat way.

im really afraid the insecure feeling will one day become losing.

i really cant afford to lose.

hais.

perhaps im just thinking too much?

or im not used to this kind of sudden change of lifestyle?

or im just simply asking too much?

i really wish hope and pray tat i wont make another mistake.

(:

had iris bdae celebration at waraku.

no full attendance.

but we still enjoy ourselves.

(:

will upload all my photos soon.

no time to photoshop them.

will do all one shot when i got the time.

dont come aft me for the photos.

esp dolly and lisa.

opps!

lols.

=D

im doing quite well at work.

learning things bit by bit as days goes by.

adapting to the stress.

going for class on the 12nov.

looking forward for the class.

coz aft class im certified assistant manager.

den i got 1 less thing to stress abt le wat.

coz go for the class need to do so much pre work.

like doing homework lor.

so on the 17nov back to work.

can happily wear my '2nd assistant manager' nametag liao.

'trainee manager' nametag can throw aside liao.

den next month pay higher le.

haa.

next.

things going very well between me and him.

the time we spend together is really much more lesser den before le.

coz of his work and my work.

reallie hope tat work wont pull us apart.

happy 2mths.
(:

work is so stress.

now i really can feel the stress of being a manager.

just came back from work and oso management meeting.

and found out i got so many things to do.

and so many things have not done yet.

tats working life ba.

finish work my whole mind still thinking of work.

wat are things i still need to do.

wat are things not done yet.

haiyo stress ah.

haa.

hais.

i really envy those ppl having perfect family.

unlike mine.

dont have a mother who can really understand how youngster feel and wat youngster wan nowadays.

her mindset is stucked in her oldies.

and oso my relationship with my brother is not tat close like how others treat their siblings.

they can be best friends.

hais.

is not i dont want to go home.

somehow i dont like to go home.

i go home like no one bother abt me.

i go home like a dumb.

no one talk to me.

go home like so weird.

they like strangers.

hais i noe tat should not be the way.

but i dunno how to change the way.

i really dunno wat to do lah.

had a great full attendance gathering on our liu jie's birthday.

had our dinner at grapevine.

(:

my work had been very good.

when i went back to kallang for visit or for class.

ppl ask me how's work?

my ans will be 'very good.. better den kallang'.

yup tats the truth.

the crews there are good.

the impt thing is tat the management team there is united.

no badmouth.

no chaos.

no backstabbers.

unlike kallang's.

im really fortunate tat im transferred there.

with such a great resturant manager and 1st assistant.

i must really appreciate and do a good job.

looking forward for my class next month.

and i already take over payroll le.

can say i progress very fast le.

less den 2mths i already doing shift.

did cashsheet.

and oso had took over payroll.

although there's some crop up in my cashsheet lah.

lols.

need practice ba.

i believe i can do a good job de.

(:

met josias when i went back kallang 2 days ago.

and he congrat me regarding my promotion,

so happy.

to think back.

audrey did not even congrat me at all.

wat the shit right?

i miss my crazy five girls.

i miss our bitching and laughing session.

when can we have another one?

kbox session too!!

rmb those times tat we went until we got sore throat and our stomach are so full when we walked out of kbox?

lols.

but we are all so busy nowadays.

work work work.

we are all working now.

if u all free must ask me out de wor.

hee.

meet up soon~!

=p

i noe in life u will nv feel contented.

in any moment u will want sth more.

but at least now i feel so contented in my current life.

having wat i wanted and wished for.

got a stable job and im so happy working there.

having my friends and love one ard me and i love them so much.

really hope tat i wont lose anything or anyone of them.

really cant imgine i lose any of them.

think my life will be miserable and terrible ba.

haa.

I WANT TO BE HAPPY DURING EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF MY LIFE~!!

=D

if u all got read newspaper.

u might noe one of the unit opposite my block caught fire.

its already abt 3am.

i worked closing reached home abt tat time.

its so scary to see a huge water hose on the main road frm my hse.

all the way thru the carpark.

den to the cover walkway under block.

i already noe sth weird is happening.

i walked further along the walkway.

i saw ALOT of ppl.

hello its 3am.

y on earth ppl are not sleeping but loittering under block.

ppl was looking and facing up.

den i saw 2 fire engines.

im scared.

im shocked.

im panic.

i called my mother immediately.

to ask her where is she.

she told me she was outside the hse.

den i look up where all the ppl were looking.

it was actually opposite my block.

i relax abit.

i went up my hse and ask my mother wat happen.

she told me hse caught fire lor.

just now i reached home i read the news le.

the little girl who like to play fire and 'finally' the hse caught fire.

its midnight and her mother not at home.

wth lor.

read the link below and u will noe wat happen actually.

http://www.straitstimes.com/Latest%2BNews/Singapore/STIStory_167016.html

hee.

lazy to type out the whole story lah.

lols.

hmm.

feeling stress actually.

i met few friends tat had not been contacting for quite some time.

i met ivor few days back near my hse.

he asked me whether im studying uni or not.

i said no.

fine.

next i met jinlong on msn.

he asked the same thing.

sians.

is like ppl 'expecting' me to study uni.

but the fact is i did not.

aiya watever it is.

i enjoy working life now.

i dont care wat ppl say abt me.

(:

here comes another post ever since my last post.

most of u all shld noe tat my life had changed quite alot.

had changed job surounding and new post.

yup i finally got promoted.

happy with wat im doing now.

having good restaurant manager.

having good colleagues.

having good crews.

im consider lucky le.

hope my luck will be with me where ever i go.

will i stay at mcd forever?

maybe?

i really dunno.

i dont find anything bad if i work there.

if i really like the job.

y not right?

is it a waste?

i dont think so ba.

now i realise promotion in mcd oso see qualifications de.

experience is not impt.

if u got the cert.

u will get the post.

so if i think back.

if i nv get my diploma.

think i wont be a 2nd assistant manager.

think i will just be a floor manager nia.

hmm when will be my next promotion?

im aiming to get promoted to 1st assistant manager in 5yrs time.

(:

another thing is i found someone who love me truefully.

i hope so.

really hope pray bless tat i wont meet the wrong one again.

it really took me time and alot of courage to accept him.

he gave me the courage to fall in love again.

he gave me confidence to believe in guys again.

he let me realise tat actually there are still good guys ard me.

this time round i really did consider.

im not as silly as last time le ba.

i think so.

consider real hard.

some of u might noe.

some of u are there for me during the days tat im considering.

telling u all stories abt him.

telling u all things he done for me.

thanks for giving me advices.

really thanks tat being there for me.

actually he did ask me whether i had forgotten the past.

den i told him.

forgetting the past is one thing.

forgetting the way tat he hurt me is another thing.

watever it is.

wat is past let it past ba.

i really hope tat he is my mr right tat i had been searching for.

we had been together for a mth le.

things had changed.

he started to get angry easily.

i started to throw temper easily.

we both realise tat.

we talked abt it too.

its like we both noe each other more le.

den hack care le lor.

we noe tat tat's normal and common for couple.

but we both just dont want tat to happen.

its not very good lor.

yup.

i promised not to throw temper easily.

i promised not to show attitude easily.

(:

both of us oso noes tat for the first few mths are so-called 'honeymoon period'

we asked each other 'can our honeymoon period last forever?'

we hope so too

(:

initially i dont dare to love him so deeply with my whole heart.

im still scared tat i will get hurt again.

he noes tat.

but i see him love me so much.

i just feel tat its unfair to him if i dont love him as much as he love me.

so as time goes by.

slowly i love him more and more le.

if there's anything goes wrong again.

seriously shit i really dunno wat to do.

dunno wat will i become.

well so just hope tat everything goes fine.

nothing bad will happen between us.

(:

dont think i got bf le i forget u all wor.

im not tat kind of friend de wor.

i will still find time to meet u all up.

ar bo u all can try ur luck to go marina square mcd to look for me lor.

haha.

lucky june and shinyi.

went to find me juct nice im working.

thanks for the subway.

im sorry tat im busy at tat point of time.

got no time to do drinks for u all.

hees.

=p

i miss you all~!!

wow.

almost half a mth nv update liao.

haa.

had shinyi aka my wu jie's 20th bdae celebration at chomp chomp.

had shanyun's 20th bdae belated celebration at her hse for a steamboat.

(:

jun was admitted to hospital coz of her back de 'slip-disc' not in place.

dont ask me wats tat.

coz i oso dunno.

had been going to hospital aft work to visit her.

hey im ur second friend who go and visit u hor.

see how impt u are to me and how impt im to u.

lols!!

=D

finally there is someone doing something abt my promotion.

finally i got wat i wanted for so long.

its not my dream but my aim instead.

im promoting to assistant manager wef 1sept.

and i will be transferring to marina centre.

dolly and lisa: actually i wana tell u all personally de but dunno y these few days nv meet up.

haa.

anyway u all no need worry abt me liao.

im not at geylang east central.

no siao lang.

lols.

ehh char bos meet up soon leh.

missing u all liao.

lols.

lots of things and stuffs and happenings to tell u all leh.

hees.

=p

well as for me and him.

had been hanging out with him quite often these few days aft work.

yup i told him im giving him a chance.

but not so soon.

i told him to give me another mth to see whether he is the one.

and at the same time i oso want him to think thru carefully whether am i the one.

as wat many ppl ard me told me.

must enjoy the period of time tat a guy is wooing u.

its rare.

yup now i realise is really rare.

so im enjoying happily now.

hees.

im feel happy and enjoy the times being out with him.

i dont feel anything weird or bad.

so is he the one?

will find out soon.

(:

i ever think before how i wish i can be like jun hospitalise.

how many ppl come and visit me.

den i can count how many true friends are there ard me.

CANDICE happy 20th birthday!!!

haha.

thanks for the treat just now.

really nv thought of u are giving us a treat today.

i thought it was just a dessert session nia.

ended up we having stingray sotong prawn rojak and dessert.

omg~

lols.

well although it was just a hawker treat.

i believe the 4 of us enjoyed ourselves thoroughly.

can see it from our damn loud laughter.

our laughter is really OMG lor.

lols.

anyway thanks candice.

hope u will enjoy ur dae with ur beloved eden.

(:

i dont think candice read my blog afterall.

lols.

well well well.

dolly ah.

lisa ah.

i really damn sad.

feeling damn hopeless.

the more i think.

the more i really dunno wat to do leh.

yup like wat u all said.

if this really drags on.

it will really break up de.

ya i noe.

ya i understand.

but the rest understand mah?

hais.

it takes 2 hands to clap.

for wat im the only who stress?

for wat i do the initiative and no one else initiate?

hais.

i really dunno wat else can i do to save it.

to prevent it from breaking up.

really feel like crying now.

how i wish...

yeah felt so glad tat michelle call me up today!

so damn shock to hear my hp ring.

den saw 'michelle tong' and the pic both of us took at sentosa.

100% SHOCK~!

lols.

ask me when wana meet.

at least she cares to call me up for a meet up.

thanks for remembering me.

we had not been seeing each other for abt 6mths liao.

shld be meeting on next mon.

i asked my airen.

she michelle oso jio ah boon.

this kind of friend is worth to treasure.

looking forward for our meet up.

(:

haa.

the most funny part is when i wana meet up with michelle all.

i still ask dolly whether are we meeting on mon oso or not.

coz we too much program liao ah.

wait crash hafta pang seh one side.

not nice lah.

lols.

=D

friends.

friends..

friends...

now 'friends' made me headache man.

hais~

2 weeks nv online.

busy me ah.

haa.

working.

go out aft work.

stay and slack at workplace aft work.

so go home late almost everyday lor.

=p

had watched the movie SECRET with mike and his friends on national day eve.

the movie is nice but its totally unrealistic lor.

7/10.

den went to boat quay qool bar aft movie.

stay up till 5plus den go home.

my national day plan was totally smashed.

my national day mood was totally smashed too.

although i only slept 4hrs den go to work.

i dont feel tired at all.

im in the mood of working.

im high for the whole day.

looking forward to watch fireworks aft work.

but when i finish work liao.

receive a msg.

seriously lah.

my mood really drop from the top to the most bottom.

hais.

sad lah.

i really worth nothing.

fireworks fireworkds fireworks.

how i wish...

last fri had been dragged to double o by dolly.

haha.

i went is oso coz i nv been there b4 lah.

is actually to celebrate dolly's friend bdae.

ended up lisa and me went oso.

haha.

so damn qiao met jefflina and joey there.

lols.

double o de music no nice so we went down to o bar.

nicer.

we stayed there till 3am till it closes.

aft tat no more plan.

so went home lor.

today off day.

did not go out.

wanted kbox de.

but i budget.

candice budget

dolly budget.

so we all decide to stay at home.

wont spend any money.

lols.

tats all for now ba.

will try to update soon.

miss everyone to care to read my blog!!

love ya~!!

=D

hais.

aft an hour of reading blogs.

thinking.

and some reflections.

yup i did realise tat it had been quite some time ever since i met up my jies.

ever since the harry potter movie ba.

well if i were to ask.

how long it had been ever since our full attendance?

i really dont wish to think back.

but i think i noe the ans.

its really saddening lor.

where did our promises goes to?

dump into the sea?

or disappear into thin air?

hais.

i really dunno wat to do lah.

just tell me wat to do ba.

i had been always trying my best to msg everyone for gathering.

do u noe tat its so damn fucking frustrated with no reply?

some might not noe coz u nv did tat b4.

i dont wana continue with all my nasty words.

i really dunno wat the rest think abt this sistership or rather friendship.

if still treasure it.

so pls be more initiative ba.

i really really really feel very HOPELESS lor.

hais.

who can understand?

no one ba.

im so sad now.

who can be the one to be here with me and to an wei me?

btw there's NO OFFENCE to wat i had just said.

if u feel offended.

im really sorry.

ohh ya.

forgot to add.

tue aft dinner at steakhouse we all went to watch ALONE.

its a nice show.

worth to watch it.

but becareful.

u might be deaf if ur eardrums are not strong enough.

lols.

its like more to the volume made us scared rather den the show made us scared.

btw just came back from a movie marathon.

meet up candice eden and one of eden friend.

we planned to watch SIMPSONS de.

yup.

its funnie.

worth to watch too.

we finish the show ard 845.

its like still early.

den eden suggested to watch another movie.

den i sae watch VACANCY lor.

coz heard tat its a horror movie too.

but more to triller lah.

so we really continue to watch another movie.

but.

vacancy like not nice de lor.

can say is damn bo liao lor.

totoal its like only 8ppl acting in the show nia.

no storyline oso.

so i suggest NOT to watch if u all havent watch it.

best lah.

within 2 days watched 3movies.

power lor~

lols!

mark sim came down today to tell me wat he will be doing to make me promote.

sounds reasonable.

and oso dont wana put him in a difficult suitation.

so wat to do?

have to wait again.

hais.

how long will it take man.

but on the other hand.

i think not much ppl will go for tat position de ba.

well.

better dont be so confident.

but if i still dont get anything after everything.

i think i will hate mark sim?

haha.

finally made the first move.

well i will observe and see hows the suituation.

(:

well well well.

a couple of days did not update.

lotsa stuffs happened.

yup.

thought kids to do some art and craft.

at first had up croked up.

but everything still went on smothly.

hmm there's another issue.

on my way to work tat day.

i went to work together with irene tay.

who is one of the hq ppl.

den she get to noe tat i got another job liao.

at the same time she asked me am i interested in becoming SAE (store activities excecutive).

for ur info.

im STAR (store activities representatives).

so SAE is actually my boss.

my SAE is resigning.

as of today i think she had resigned liao.

so irene was thinking whether im interested to takeover her.

well well well.

y not do a familar job with better pay.

rather den doing a new job with lesser pay.

so i told her can consider.

den she msg mark sim who is my business manager.

den he came immediately to my store to talk to me.

im so damn freaking stress when he reached and wana talk to me.

i dont dare to go near him.

lols.

den he talked to me.

but he will come back to me again lah.

is like 99.9% of the ppl is encouraging me to go for it lor.

den jun overhead tat i might have higher chance in promoting.

so hopefully its real lah ah.

went to wheelocks fish n co to look for samuel.

long time ever since i met him.

thank god he's working.

so jun and me got discount from him.

lols.

lucky he say i slimed down liao.

if not i will leave there immediately.

lols.

my business consultant fred had left the company aft 24yrs and 8mths of commitment.

so sad tat he left.

we all will miss him de.

celebrated dolly's bdae at steakhouse located at cineleisure.

i bot a dress too.

it cost a bomb lor.

but its nice lah.

sometimes still have to pamper myself de.

but not everytime lah.

im not tat rich to pamper myself everytime.

haa.

btw photos will be uploaded in my friendster.

lazy to upload it here.

lols.

thanks nina for the chat.

thans for making me cry aft a long time.

well okie.

i will think it thru de.

(:

teaching kids to do art and craft is my first time.

and im gonna do it in another like 8hrs time.

really hope tat nothing will goes wrong.

(:

wat happen my dear girl?

dont stress dont sad k?

we crazy girls for sure will acc u de!

muacks~

*HUG HUG*

i better go and catch some slp.

hafta wake up at 6am.

-_-

its almost 5am liao.

omg~!!

not i just reach home.

im home ard 2am plus.

still late.

y?

coz of work.

these few day i will be quite busy lor.

having quite a big event at my store on coming saturday.

i oso dunno y somehow im ended up in-charge of this event.

omg~

stress~~

im like doing all the work.

tats y i work till so late.

and stay up to now!!

event on sat.

so FRIDAY i hafta stay up LATE in store to set up everything and get ready.

and SATURDAYi hafta be in store EARLY MORNING like 8am.

dolly ah.

read those words in caps and bold?

how ah?

i oso dunno leh.

i will try my very best to finish up my work fast on fri night.

but the earliest is still 11pm leh.

den hor.

i dont think i can stay till late as sat i hafta work damn early.

i cant dont slp coz im the one talking during the event.

argh~

hais!!

so this is the sad story im talking abt.

i really hope and wish and pray tat i wont put u aeroplane.

i will try my freaking damn very best to be there k.

even though just for awhile.

or u dont want me to be there?

LOLs!!

at least i go lah ah.

just for you my friend.

(:

back form work.

well work was alright lah.

just voice out wat is right and wat is wrong lor.

seriuosly i got no idea wat the hell she wants lah.

and really i dont give a damn lah.

well anyway.

i gave my resignation to faridah just now.

she make noise lah.

she wants me to help her on weekends only.

hello~

i help u.

den who help me?

hais.

i dunno lah.

i claimed tat im tired.

but if i conpare all those ppl ard me.

think they are more tired den me.

those schooling friends working during weekends too.

those working friends.

working 2 jobs at the same time.

to earn extra income lor.

so shall i do tat too?

maybe ba.

den i got no life again.

sians~

hmm den aft work.

suddenly receive msg frm gan jiong asking where is my workplace.

jason and him wil go over to my workplace to see me.

haha.

ya the both of them really went.

jason's company good lor.

gave him a van for transport.

philip's company oso lor.

sent him to japan for work.

wah.

only work for few months can go overseas liao.

good life lah the both of them.

den we chatted for awhile.

den jason sent me home lor.

yup.

glad catching up with poly friends.

(:

anyway the chalet like too costly leh.

i oso dunno wat to do leh.

sians~

hais dolly ah~

i think and think and think ah.

am i the one shld be blamed?

u noe y..

its like aft me den he change to another person liao.

start to stop contacting u all.

stop hanging out with u ppl.

is it he noe tat i might tag along with.

so he might as well dont join u all.

hais is tat so?

coz i rmb he telling me tat he is afraid tat aft u all graduate.

ken will not be as brother as used to be.

but now is like he is the one who is backing off.

u get wat i mean?

is like everything just happen aft tat period of time.

so am i the cause of all these matter?

if really it is.

im really sorry.

wat can i do to help u all get back the friendship u all used to have?

im like feelng guilty right now.

hais~

like wat i had heard.

one person shldn't dont have problems and troubles de.

it will be really great tat if dont have any.

but seriously few ppl dont have.

when den can i dont have problems and troubles?

maybe wait till the day tat i get old?

or the minute b4 my last breathe?

or worst.

i even have to bring all my problems and troubles with me into the coffin and buried together with me?

hais~

just came back from a chatting session with jin kai and kie min.

haa.

dunno y aft tat day met the both of them on bus.

den these 2 days ask me join them for chit chat session.

was talking abt all those ghostly stuffs.

den kie min intro me to watch a ghost anime.

lols.

i watch anime de meh?

ya just started lor.

will get addicted?

maybe?

i dunno.

haha.

anyway.

they asking me out on 9august to watch firworks and marina liao.

so fast kena book liaos.

lalala~

=p

went to check chalet pricing.

no promotional price for weekends leh.

and somemore all of us can oso make it on weekends leh.

if no promotional price 3d2n $210.

promotional price 3d2n onlt $168.

big diff lors.

i oso dunno how.

discuss with the rest first ba.

going to work.

im like really totally sian le lor.

im really waiting for 31july to come.

den 1august going to have a new working environment.

going to learn lots of new things.

yup sounds interesting ah.

hee.

yup looking forward.

hmm on the other hand.

i used to so damn devoted working at mcd.

many ppl around me ask me to quit i dont bear.

but things do change lah.

not say i no longer devoted there le.

but the fact is ppl there change.

the working environment there change.

i cant take it le.

yes.

i really do wish to go to the next level to learn more stuffs.

but the ppl and environment there stop me form everything.

so its better for me to leave rather den me staying there to suffer even more.

so this time i have to say sorry and leave.

pls dont use any ways to stop me from leaving and ask me to stay.

seriously lah.

im really afraid tat my heart will grow slow leh.

i really hopei wont as the other job is waiting for me liao.

i cant put them aeroplane there.

yup.

wish me good luck and all the best ba~!!

(:

wah sian.

stay at home oso spend money.

xiu actually asked me to find the site for the shoe tat i wanted.

ended up im browsing thru bigi bag spree.

yup so ended up i bot a bag.

xiu oso~!!

haha.

cost me another $22.

no more spendings for the rest of the month liao.

but friday i will be out.

if i dont go think she wont forgive me.

present?

omg~

i will find my ways ba.

waiting for my pay day wait till neck long like girraff liao lah.

hais.

money money money~

-_-

wah omg~!!

ytd night think was one of the worst night in my 19years and 7months of life.

thanks and sorry to those ppl was with me last night.

haa.

and of coz.

i still do rmb clearly the qns u asked me.

so wat if i say yes ask him come down at tat point of time.

do u think he will go?

i dunno.

no high hopes.

ya its better for me not to think ba.

hmm.

over is over le.

i had my lesson aft ytd.

but hor.

is not i want de mah.

just dunno y i kept losing wat.

right?

or i force myself?

haha.

dunno lah.

im very sad lor.

y?

coz more and more ppl say i getting fatter liao.

yati says tat.

next ken says tat too.

den desmond says tat too~!!

dunno who will be next one to say tat.

hais.

omg.

siao liao lah.

time for me to diet le.

no more supper for me.

date me out for dinner ONLY~!!

today i really nv go work.

she oso nv go.

wtf she want sia.

i angry lor.

hais.

but i oso feel sad for my team too lah.

i still got heart de ok.

they must be working damn hard today.

just met up jin kai and kie min.

2 guys tat i noe them from kallang mcd 5years ago.

they say i still can survive till now not bad ah.

den i tell them im leaving soon liao.

lols.

damn long nv meet up with them liao.

tat time they got a gathering.

but i was sick,

mc for 3days.

so i missed tat gathering.

hmm just now met up awhile.

talked abt how we are doing nowadays lor.

my off day.

no work.

think not going out ba.

coz broke liao.

bot 2 tops from pull & bear.

cost me $45.80

bot 1 slipper from c & k.

cost me $19.90

bot 1 shoe from trendy zone.

cost me $29.90

bot eye liner.

cost me $18.90

and plus all those small little spendings.

transport lah.

meals lah.

food lah.

total up think is abt 200plus lor.

omg.

think i really need to watch out my spendings le.

its oso not good for me to spend too much.

(:

hmm a quick update before im out to chiong the night.

lols.

working long hrs and to earn more money is not for me now.

im no longer commited as before liao.

i really dont wish to care anymore and put everything there aside.

today im really not in the mood of working lor.

and im really having a bad headache.

im so sorry my star and topcats.

think tmr i dont wana go work.

coz ppl promise tat will come work but ended up nv go.

so y shld i go when i dont feel like it.

yes i simply hate ppl who give empty promises.

so good luck to those who working tmr.

ohh ya.

met jinkai on bus ytd night while on the way for supper.

i called him.

at first he cant regconise me.

but he did regconise me aft a few seconds.

if not i will be damn paiseh lor.

the bus so many ppl and i called him.

haha.

aft supper walked back home.

walked past gec mcd.

and saw yati.

went in and had a chat with her.

haa.

her store oso not as fantastic too.

cheyenne transfered there.

he dont like tat store.

tot smaller store will be easier to handle.

but the prob is.

the ppl there is not great.

working in this line somehow hafta get ur own ways to get close to bosses.

if not others will stab u on ur back.

well.

wat to do.

this the the society nowadays.hais.

this is really sad lor.

went for my medical checkup.

think tat was the first time i met such a young handsome doctor.

really.

omg~

im like a hua chi lor.

-_-

okie.

ppl is complaining tat i have not been updating my blog for a few days liao.

okie.

im now here to update liao k.

lols.

had finished my 3days of icsc work at suntec.

i really prefer to attend all these events.

rather den staying in sytore always and doing all the same old things.

at least go for all these kind of events.

can make new friends.

having chit chat session with ronald.

he still regconise and rmb me lor.

hmm not bad ah.

lols.

he say im his students of coz he rmb.

haha.

having conversations with all those big bosses is not tat scary afterall.

i really enjoyed myself tat 3days ay suntec.

tat might be the last event i attend.

my last chit chat with ronald.

my last conversations with big bosses.

and oso my last chance of making more mcd friends.

dont worry i will always rmb all these.

will always be in my memory.

yup like wat lisa say.

she believe tat i will miss mcd aft i leave.

yes definately i will miss them ALL.

(:

went to nina's place to visit her.

wah.

her leg swollen like nobody business lor.

omg~

went for my tarot card reading.

intro by lisa.

is her friend.

is freaking accurate lor.

accurate until im really stun.

really stunning lor.

yup okie.

now i found out tat he really did not lied to me.

wat he said was true.

so i think i shld put down and put away my past.

think positive.

and continue with my life.

although my life is not tat wonderful.

i need to work hard to get wat i want.

dont worry.

i will definately preservere to till the end.

till my last breathe of mine.

i really hope tat wat im going to do next is a successly path for me.

the job now really dont suit me and really making my morale lower and lower each day.

sians.

i wont listen blindly and do nth.

of coz i will work very hard to achieve wat i wana be and wat i wana get.

(:

i got the shoe tat i saw at far east tat i like very much de.

lisa saw it at amk hub.

my size no more le.

she helped my asked anywhere slse still have it.

found out online j8 has it.

so i went to j8 to get the shoe.

so happie~!!

=D

suppose to meet up dolly and ken for a drink tonight de.

buy at last left with the 2 of us.

nth else better to do.

the 2 of us went to geylang and had supper at 126 with dolly.

yuppmy~

delicious~~

hey i update my blog le hor.

no more complaints plz.

lols.

yup yup yup.

sorry girls.

i noe i have not been updating for more den a week le.

i noe u say wana view my blog den always see the same post.

haa.

now got new post le lah.

hmm.

i can say lotsa stuffs happened.

had went for childcare teacher interview.

yup its successful.

of coz i will grab this opportunity to get out of mcd.

yes i admit im really getting tired of f&b line le.

hmm some gave me positive remarks for being a childcare teacher.

some gave me neutral remarks.

i shall not say is there any negative remarks.

if really there is.

i hope i can pretend i did not hear them.

its like quite sad lor.

u imagine lah.

ur friend wana change a job environment.

den u pour cold water.

saying how bad the job is.

come on lah.

is ur friend leh.
give some support lah.

hais.

so now.

i stick to my own decision le.

i dont wana be like in the past.
do wat ppl do.

do wat ppl say.

wish me all the best k?

(:

i really hate my store more and more le.

esp the new butch in my store.

VIVIAN TAI.
she sux lah.

she came less den half a mth.

can say 90% of the crews dont like her.

saying bad abt her.

see how 'popular' she is in the store.

the most interesting part is.

i quarrelled with her last sunday.

i damn long nv quarrell with ppl le.

damn long nv raise my voice shouting at ppl.

but she reallie made my boil man.

lucky i still can control myself.

if not i think i punched her liao.

she was like grabbing my hand so hard.
if i were to swing my hand hardly to ask her let go my hand.
think my hand will swing and ended up slapped her or punched her ba.

but i just stared at her and ask her let go of my hand.

wah if not she will be the first person in my life to slap or punch.

haa.
aft the quarrell i feel like just go off like tat.

call up dolly and ask her out for a drink.
but did not lah.

i continue to work.

den she go off early.

so ended up i stayed up in store till midnight.

another thing i dont like my store now is all the gosippers and big mouths.

idiotic and stupid lor.

all their beheaviors let me reminds me of children.

he send me home only wat.

anything wrong?

all childish mindset.

watever.

as long as i noe wat im doing can le.

(:

monday met up dolly and lisa for dinner and shopping~!!

ajisen for dinner.

bot 2 tops at pull and bear.

thanks lisa the consultant.

lols.

saw a pair of shoes tat i like so much.

but a lady reached b4 me and took the last pair.

if i noe i bot it on the spot when i first saw it.

dont go another round of 'looking ard first'

hais.

im damn sad lor.

gg to bugis coming thurs.
i wana go hunt exactly the same one!!

oso met up candice aft her driving lesson and aft our shopping trip.

we 4 went over to dolly's hse for our durian feast!

nice~!!

=p

tats the 3 of us at ajisen

nina met an accident.

shocked to hear the news when ayu called me.

went to see her aft my work at suntec.

luckily only her right leg swollen.

fractured too.

hais.

omg~

poor nina.
my poor goon doo friend~

oOo..

im so into photoshop recently tats y i did not blog for abt a week.

haa.

hmm.

had finished my 4 days of leave.

met up a friend from indo tat had not been meeting up for 2yrs.

tat was great.

but within less den 24hrs.

she hafta leave and head towards america.

tat was sad.

had a kbox and buffet session.

tat was marvellous.

haa.

went into OCH.

its interesting.

if u dare to go in.

went to entrance of red house but did not go in.

den i realise i went in before.

omg~

im dumb man.

haa.

went to west coast park.

the playground there is really fun and interesting lor.

reminds me of OBS during my sec 3 days.

must go there if u nv been there before.

conclusion is.

having a car is perfect.

can go anywhere u wana go.

can go anywhere u think of going.

so when am i getting a car?

hmm..

lols~

had my long waited graduation ceremony~!

hees.

so happy and excited.

seeing all those long time no see friends.

taken lotsa photos.

yippie~!!

ya they was saying me wana organise chalet till now.

not even a single thing done.

lols.

ok lah.

i will try my best lah ah.

hmm.

graduation..

suppose to be sad?

suppose to be ba.

but dunno y i just dont feel sad at all.

i dont feel tat we are separating.

i just felt happy and excited throughout the whole ceremony.

haha.

went to sandy's 21st bdae chalet.

den i start to think for my 21st bdae wat i wana do.

perhaps chalet too ba.

haha.

my 20th bdae is still like in 5mths times.

and im thinking for my next yr's bdae liao.

wahaha~!

=D

aft 4 days.

back to work.

yeah~!

from this moment onwards.

im off from work for 4 days.

hope tat no one will call me and ask me regarding abt work.

hmm but.

different to say lah.

went to changi village to have nasi lemak with ayu just now aft work.

nina no show from work.

ya.

and she got her beauty slp for the whole day.

the both of us had been calling her since 6plus.

and she got abt 30 miss calls from us.

she still cant wake up.

den finally abt 9plus she msg us.

saying tat she wana continue her slp.

thanks ah~

2 more day to my graduation ceremony~

lalala``

hees.

=p

friends?

actually wat the the definition of friends?

as friends i think respect one's decision is impt ba.

since i decide to keep it to myself.

wat for u kept on asking me.

kept on talking abt it.

i will just feel irritated.

i think our mindset of 'friends' is different ba.

i just feel tat i dont deserve to be treated in tat way lor.

ended up im unhappy u all say i throw temper.

black face.

these and tat lah.

hais.

y u all just dont understand?

still say we are best friends.

sat night aft one long day of working.

went to meet up dolly and friends at a pub name 'clinic' for chilling.

drink.

talk.

play.

haa.

here we are~!!

hees.

=p

going back to work later at 0830.

its mon.

by right is my off day.

but there is sth going on at my store.

so im being asked to go back.

so off on tue.

wed to fri is my leave.

tue not free liao.

haa.

wed neh..

jialat lor.

at first tot of meeting dolly lisa and candice to have sakura buffet.

but now boon saying tat he is meeting michelle on wed for dinner.

ask me wana join or not.

so now i dunno which to say yes.

which to reject.

see how lah.

hmm den thurs.

MY GRADUATION CEREMONY~!!

lalala~~

fri going to sandy's bdae chalet if im not wrong.

had been asking iris but no reply from her.

sians~

-_-

xiu u going mah?

hmm see..

tats how am i going to spend my 4 days of off day and leave.

(:

anyway i got my new camera liao.

so happy.

hees.

=D